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May 6, 2019

hospital

I recently accompanied someone to a prominent hospital in Penang for a consultation job. It was the same hospital that I frequented back when my old man was sick. I remember having to sit there for hours, just to wait for our turn to be seen by the doctor. Never mind if you have an appointment because it doesn’t mean shit. It was like we’re begging to be cured by God. Fucking shit. And it hasn’t changed. That trip turned out to be a half day event, for a 5 minutes time with the doctor.

All of this stemmed from gross inefficiency. We had to contend with screwed up queue system to register the patient, for the actual consultation, for the payment and for the medication (if any, usually yes because that’s how the hospital earn from your sick ass). We’d see nurses carrying thick stacks of chits in files, yelling patients’ names in the ocean of weary people (often mispronouncing because apparently, there’re a lot of Indonesians seeking medical treatments in our country). We’d see people walking everywhere and wheelchairs hogging the corridors. It was the same thing 15 years ago, and they’re as inefficient today. If we in engineering and manufacturing are as inefficient as these hospitals are, we’d all be jobless by now.

We’re in the 21st century for fuck’s sake, someone should do something about the hospitals.

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February 22, 2019

work rant #xxx

Been mentoring a new guy at work lately. Young guy in his 20’s, guy’s a total fucking wreck. I do not know if this is a young generation thing but, he possesses every trait that I hate about the young gen of engineers. Delinquent, lackadaisical, clumsy and fucking stupid.

When my boss first pitched him to me to be inducted into my team, he came with a caveat that he didn’t get good grades at school. But I did not mind that because, I believed that underdogs are the blackhorses of the society. According to me, they tend to have to work twice harder than those snobs with fancy grades/qualification, and are usually street smart. I am one of them blackhorses. For what I lack in professional qualification, I make it up with sheer dedication and commitment to work. I might sound ribald here, but I am a force to be reckoned with when I am wearing a badge at work. I get respects and I fucking solve problems like Winston Wolf.

Anyway, like what the internet nowadays like to say – “the risk that I took was calculated, but man… was I bad at math.” Couldn’t be more true. I thought he could be like me, but what was I thinking? Fuck me. That new guy is a flop. He talks to himself, and when I explain things that get a wee bit complex to him (but not something too complex that a newbie couldn’t handle), his eyes would roll around like he was being tasered in his nuts. Occasionally, he’d nod off halfway during a discussion. He’d watch Youtube at work, and play one of those China Diablo clones on his fucking cellphone most of the time. He’s disrespectful to the female colleagues and he talks very loudly like he ate too much mercury from a broken thermometer when he was a kid. He doesn’t take notes when being mentored, only to later ask back the same thing that I have explained before.

So what do these kind of sods hope to get out of life/career being such a handful like that? Escapes me. In the old days, I was respectful, street smart and hardworking. I was aggressive and had high aspirations. I am always thirsty for knowledge and I take on challenges after another head on. That’s how I ended up as a project lead in a prominent silicon development company. It wasn’t given to me because I have a masters in something. It’s because of my ability to handle shit. I came a long way from where I was in a household that has only one expectation – to stay out of jail.

Now I see people like this guy, I can’t help but wonder how is it like in his brain. Things must’ve been simpler, and full of fancy creatures that talks. I don’t know if this is an intelligence thing. Fuck you people for being so stupid.

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February 13, 2019

what have i learned – Company T

I have worked in Company T as a project lead for 7 years now.

I’m not saying this proudly but rather, out loud to myself in disbelief. It’s a fuck of a company, and I hate everything in it. Reason why I stayed so long in this place, is because I am rather well paid there (it was double of what I earned from my last employment when joined, now tripled). So, it’s all for the money here now. There’s no heart in it… like a prostitute.

“I just can’t stand Company T employees, they are such whores”, I used to tell everyone that. Now, I can’t believe I’m employed here (I still refuse to call myself a ‘Company T employee’…)

So what have I learned there over the years at Company T? Not all the good things, I’m afraid. I learned how to fake shit there. That’s right… faking shit up.

I learned how to fucking fake a smile. I used to give people the flip-bird hard face when I wasn’t happy about something, but over here, I have to give a fake smile to every asshole I encounter because everyone is backstabbing each other over the simplest of things (if you know where to find the horror stories I encountered in Company T in this blog, you’d know why).

I learned how to fucking fake a courtesy. Like when one of the delinquent engineers refuses to reply my urgent email for the fifth time with a deadline in tow, I have to sound like I’m all dandy with him/her and keep resending the request with sweet frosting on top like “Hi IgnorantFatFuck, sorry for bothering you but, I would appreciate if you could provide the XML file for the voltage limit setting that has been due since last century. Thank you”…

I learned how to fucking fake my mental state. Like when a rookie does something moronic, instead of castigating him/her with something direct and fun like “you’re such a fucking dumbass that I’m surprised you made it this far in life. Did your mom drop you on the head when you were a kid? Or did your stepdad feed you kerosene when you’re a baby?”. Instead, I have to pretend that I care, and part fake words of wisdom to the imbecilic comrade to lift his/her spirits up and guide him/her back to the righteous path.

I learned how to fake a respect. Like when a high ranking oxygen waster wanted to discuss about something that’s retarded, I have to feign interest and pretend that I care enough to listen to his/her brain filth which they uncharacteristically refer to as ‘thoughts/ideas’… when all I think about is which tool to choose if I were to be given the free pass to clobber his/her head.

I learned how to pretend that I enjoy the company of idiots. Like someone whom I remotely know spontaneously joins me at the cafe to talk about something of little interest to me at the cafeteria and I have to fake it like I’m totally glad to have his/her company like I can’t do without, while I actually just want to enjoy my meal alone.

Whores.

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May 13, 2018

Malaysian politicians are morons – 3

So now we have the new government. As expected, some in-fighting already started before they even had time to clean up the streets of those banners and posters. That’s because, like it or not, most of these people who are forming this new Malaysian government… are amateurs. Most do not have the experience to run a country so, time is needed for them to break-in. Shit’s going to get much harder.

But even before it begins, this Rafizi Ramli guy (the PKR vice president) made a press statement yesterday to bitch about PKR not ‘being consulted’ to appoint the top 3 ministerial positions in the new cabinet. That was when shit hits the fan. People were pissed off because because it was deemed ungrateful (indeed) of him to do things like that to undermine the leadership. I was pissed too, like, can’t this idiot air his discontentment internally? Why go to the press? Imagine that if you do not like the dish your mom cooked for you, first thing you do is to go to the newspaper to castigate your own mom?? Doesn’t make a lot of sense I know.

And then there’s this idiot oxygen waster called Wong Chen, who is Rafizi’s BFF of some sorts, also a big winner of Subang Jaya’s parliament seat P104, came out with this idiotic post to defend Rafizi’s action in his Facebook – which made me even more pissed. Check out what that asswipe had to write:

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The matter is simple. PKR has 47 + 1 MPs. DAP has 42. Bersatu has 13. Amanah has 11. Note also that Sarawak BN MPs are now exploring to join Pakatan. Expectations and anxieties are high that many UMNO MPs will jump to Bersatu in the coming days.

The PM and Deputy PM positions were agreed earlier by Harapan before the elections. So the announcement of the next few senior ministers was to be made today by consensus of all parties. At 4 pm, Dr.Mahathir appointed the 3 new ministers in the presence Bersatu, DAP and Amanah. These 3 posts are the most powerful in the country. Finance went to DAP. Home ministry which controls the police goes to Bersatu. Defence which controls the army for Amanah.

Nothing yet for PKR, the single largest party in Pakatan? So what did Rafizi do that is so wrong in the eyes of the public? He is telling truth to power that these appointments were made without PKR consent. Then he tells us that Dr.Mahathir will see Anwar in hospital to consult Anwar and hopefully they can discuss and rectify the issue.

Rafizi does not want to see the new govt under Dr. Mahathir to start on the wrong footing and as such he dared to tegur Dr. Mahathir’s announcement. And for this he is villified by most of you.

It is precisely this unhealthy attitude of Malaysians never to question authority, that is the main reason why we allowed Rosmah and Najib to rule us for 9 years.

Rafizi worked tirelessly for 2 years with INVOKE to bring about meaningful change. I am proud to be his friend and will continue to support Rafizi in his quest to create a two party system for Malaysia.

The sentence that ticked me off was this : “It is precisely this unhealthy attitude of Malaysians never to question authority, that is the main reason why we allowed Rosmah and Najib to rule us for 9 years.”

The gall he had for saying we were ruled by assholes because of our ‘unhealthy attitude’! What the fuck! Does he even know how democracy works, that cibai!?

FUCK YOU WONG CHEN! FUCK YOU AND RAFIZI RAMLI AND YOUR DOG!

I have to say this, that when we voted, we voted for PH, not any specific person or his creed. The reason was simple, everyone wanted the tyrannical government out – because we weren’t exactly thrilled with their shitty policies, corruption and arrogance that had put our country in the backseat in terms of reputation for decades. Had anyone put a rabid dog in place of the (then) opposition party against BN, we’d have voted for that damn dog all the same and won the election. And now this guy suddenly is so full of shit and put himself on the high ground to condemn us! FUCK!

And now it’s disheartening to learn that PH still has a long way to make this right. They already disappoint big time before assuming office. GODDAMN!

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July 22, 2017

Goddess of Mercy temple, Penang

My wife is a Taoist devotee (but I am an Atheist, I don’t believe in God). No she doesn’t pray at home but, once a while, she’ll go to a temple to recharge her faith. Her usual request to the deities are usually for health, safety and happiness for the family. Maybe in between the requests, a blessing for our daughter to have a better life. Her favorite temple? Goddess of Mercy temple (GoMt) at Pitt Street, Penang.

I haven’t been to that place for ages. Must be close to 7 years. The last time I went there, was when my mom died. I was there to say some prayers out of filial obligations… until last week, when my wife wanted me to accompany her to the temple with our daughter, Regine. I obliged… because I missed the place. But that day turned out to be one of the saddest day of my life – to discover that the GoMt I knew is no longer there. It has changed into something different.

You see, GoMt is a very old temple. It was built in the 1700’s. My grandparents grew up praying in it, my mom grew up praying in it, and I grew up praying in it (that was before I decided to be a freethinker). There were pics of our family that stretched over a couple of generations taken inside that temple. That place had remained the same through the years. It was smoky, everything was dark in color from the years of incense burning. It was always crowded and the temple was a din of devotees going about their business. One would not come out of that temple without tears as it was smoky as the clouds in heaven (I can’t say ‘hell’). It was beautiful in its own way. As a kid, I used to gawk at its giant Taoist giant deity figures adorning the sticky walls, marveled at its intricate pillars, curious over the 3 little ‘white tigers’ at the end of the middle courtyard, and amazed by the ever effervescent figure of Guanyin herself. I was even there during the 60 year-once festival that contributed to the infamous Penang jetty tragedy in 1988. Brought back a lot of memories.

So what happened to the place? It was repainted with red and gold. Guanyin figure now has a tacky gold plated face. There’s no more smell of incense inside the temple because it’s prohibited now (HELLO!? It’s a temple!). Devotees are required to light their incense sticks at the al-fresco section of the temple, in an unflattering rectangular aluminum (or chrome plated) censer that resembled a giant kitty litter (instead of the original round brass type). Inside, it was all quiet like an abandoned place. There wasn’t anyone doing any prayers there that day (which was odd to me), and there were no people getting their fortunes checked. There were no kids requesting for divine blessing for their education. There were no housewives smacking miniature evil paper men with their platform shoes to turn their luck around. I went around to check the 3 little nasty ‘white tigers’ – there were no pork lard in their pet bowl. Even the stalls that sells the praying stuff were mostly abandoned (it used to be busy like a morning market). The place is now like one of those museums that has no life in it. I’ve never seen GoMt so quiet and sad before. Fucking hell. What the fuck happened to my beloved GoMt!?

I left the place feeling really sad. I knew it will not be long before some jackass decided to put up some LED deco and LCD animations in that temple – like some of those tacky Taiwanese Taoist temple. I wanted to savor the place that day to relive my old childhood moments – the time when I got lugged along by my late mother and late grandmother listening to Sam Hui in her junk car… but I was apparently, too late. GoMt is fucking gone now, along with my mom, grandma and childhood (my wife told me it has been like this for a few years already… I was a few years too late apparently…)

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