The previous 3 years had been quite tragic for me, for I have been contending with death after death in the family. In just that short period of time, I lost all my grandparents, and most of all, my own father. My world tumbled into darkness and the journey seemed to look real lonely ahead.

But in 2006, I found my light and was given a blessing instead. I got Regine. Here she is…

Excuse her drools, she’s just approaching 7 months. I’m sure when she’s old enough, she’s gonna work on her drooling problems and be a much better person than her daddy.

Life with Regine for these 7 months have been the best to date in my life, though the first 5 were quite shitty - having to deal with Emily’s unstable temperament during her pregnancy and the amount of moolahs involved in delivering the baby. But it was all well worth it post second half of the year. The joy that Regine brought to our world sort of eclipsed everything else that sucked and illuminated the way ahead for us.

You know, I used to be indifferent to all those environmental and animal extinction shits around me. I don’t really care. I was self centered and apathetic. Like, why the fuck should I give a damn? When I fucking die, it will all be gone like a dream. Why fight for a dream that isn’t here to stay?

But Regine changed all that. My priority in life has shifted. It’s all for her now. I want her to see how a real tiger or rhino looks like. I want her to see natural waterfalls, douse herself in it and be able to build a real sandcastle on a real beach. Not on some artificial high tech indoor waterpark or something. I want her to see the world at it’s best and it radically changed my way of doing things on this planet. Like - I swear to god (note: not an implication that I believe in some divine higher being) - that I’m going to spend every ounce of my consciousness to preserve the environment and make this world a less hostile place for my Regine to live in. (no… not like those Steve Irwin craps but, something like - habitual recycling, refrain from eating endangered animals and burp/fart less).

And I’m gonna also focus more in my career to improve the quality of her (and Emily’s) life. In fact, I’ve been working on that since last year, after that round of dramatic self realization on how much of a sleaze I was (see 2005 roll up). And I did well alright. I earned respects and carved influences. Hell, I couldn’t have made it any better. A testament to that, I was nominated for a promotion by the boss. Though I did not get that promotion (out of sheer bad luck), but at least I don’t feel like an underachiever no more. I now know I’m good and I can smack the motherfucking shit out of all those rookie engineers hands down.

So, it’s all about Regine now. 2007 will be to get her to walk, talk or maybe to perform a cool wheelie on her tricycle. Whatever it is, I hope she’s going to be smarter than her daddy (who is already very smart *wink*) and stay healthy always.

Love to all of you people. Happy New Year and fucking make way please… my kid’s growing up.

This is my 1000th published entry. (Exact post count = 1192. 188 entries had either been deleted or taken down due to complaints from readers, violation of workplace etiquette, conflict of interests, etc, 4 entries are hidden)

Not sure if this is something that I should be proud of, but in a way, it’s telling me that I have been spending wayyy too much time sitting in front of the computer punching keys and had been as productive as a retarded paraplegic sloth.

And these wasted time, hundreds fucketh of hours of it, could have been used to do something better, like going to the gym to chisel up my increasingly doughy physique… or perhaps to volunteer myself for community services (eg. free breast examination for college students? Yeah…). But sadly… nevermind.

Anyway, I just would like to have a word of thanks to all of you who have been - as productive as a retarded paraplegic sloth - regularly visiting this site and read the craps that I had churned over these 39 months. Without you, I’m sure I would be just another beefcake in a gym providing pro-bono tits kneading services to college students. -_-

PS: Say, if you guys could tell me how did you first discover my blog, I’d want to be grateful to those who had pimped my site by putting them in my thoughts and links page. Thank you.

Just found out from some concerned readers that my blog has been banned at my own workplace - Company X.

Bloody hell, so much for telling everyone about myself being an awesome leader. Only chicken asses use dirty tactics to undermine their opponents. *Ptuiiiiiii !!!!!*

Wanna know how good, “telus” and “efisien” our JPJ staffs are? Hover over to my friend’s blog entry here.

Feel free to distribute this interesting encounter. If you’re from the press, email my friend about it, he’d like it to be published publicly (the Datuk actually challenged to get this to the press…)

We do not need arrogant Datuks around, we need somebody who can really lead and do things right.

Here’s the URL again in case you missed it
http://www.rkaru.com/?p=69

Happy Chinese New Year people… respect the elders and beat up the kids. Cheers.